Happy Halloween yall! I love this day. I think it’s because of the dressing up part. As well, being creative and imaginative gets my blood pumping. I feel like a kid when Halloween is here. I like Halloween more than Christmas!
I guess it’s one of the reasons why I love gong to NYC Comic Con. It’s always in the beginning of October. So it’s like getting the chance to celebrate Halloween before it arrives. I usually cosplay when I go to comic con. If you don’t know what that is, it’s pretty much when people dress up as their favorite character from their favorite show, comic book, movie, or video game. I dressed up as Storm from X-men (also the queen of Wakanda). I had so much fun!
I think that was the only exciting thing that has happened to me. I feel totally blessed and grateful to attend the event. It’s always nice to be with my fellow geeks and blerds (black nerds). While I’m on the subject of being a geek, I decided to post two geeky entries; one about the Joker movie and the other on the Hey Arnold cartoon. Hope you guys love it. I have been thinking about doing more geeky posts in regards to mental health. What do you think about that?
I know I haven’t post much. I feel terrible about that. I definitely will try to do better on November. I know I have discuss about getting better with my emotional health. I actually went online and look for tips on getting better emotionally. I found a lot of articles for mental health tips but not emotional. I went on YouTube to see if there were any emotional health tip videos. No luck there. I haven’t had the chance to find any books on it. But I have been trying. If you have any articles, video, or books to recommend, please comment below.
I’m trying my hardest to piece my life together. My room is a mess. I feel like my room is a representation of my life. A disaster. It makes me depressed and full of anxiety. With a help from a friend, I manage to get a quarter of it done. But there is still a long way to go. And it doesn’t count doing laundry and reorganizing. I will try to work on the tasks as soon as possible.
Plus, as much as I love this blog, it tends to stress me out time to time. I think I’m spreading myself too thin and I need to find a balance to do it all. I will need to be more realistic with my time and don’t be a afraid to say no. As well, find the motivation to do what is necessary to have a happier life. A lot on my mind and it stresses me out all the time to the point I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to face my problems head on. Even though, I know I have to. It’s an eternally battle and I feel like I’m losing every day.
Some people say I’m too critical of myself and I need to give myself more credit. But I need to get better. I need to be better. I was hoping by the end of this year I would a better adult. I feel like I’m getting worse. Maybe I am being hard on myself. But is it a bad thing to be hard on myself? Doesn’t it mean I want more out of life? Doesn’t it mean I want more from myself? Isn’t that part of self-improvement? Knowing you’re capable of doing better and trying to achieve it?
Let me stop. Thinking out loud here and I am not trying to waste your time on this entry of racing thoughts. But what I do know, as always I will try to aim higher. I have already started by getting a trainer. I’m finally going back to the gym! I’m so excited. I am looking for a meal prep delivery service that can supply healthy meals in a reasonable price. If you know a good program, please comment below. Like I said, I kicked start on cleaning my room. I even bought a new vacuum to help with the cleaning! So I have been taking actions. Small and slow steps. I just need to be patient with myself.
Everything is a process. So what process are you on? How was your October? Did you achieve some goals or were you like me and couldn’t manage a lot? Are you celebrating Halloween and are your dressing up? If so, what’s your costume? Please comment below. I love reading comments. Until next time my Michy Minions, adult one day at a time. Xoxo
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